Duckie 2015 #12

Dec 30, 20153 min read

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Published: Dec 30, 2015

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So now that it's a few days until the new year, I guess I can safely say that I've achieved being alive. I have drawn a little. I have attempted to be cool and take less bullshit, but I still have to take a lot of bullshit and I'm really not a fan of that.

I've started the internship. It's alright so far, pretty tough though. Far from all of these children are easy to deal with. It's fairly obvious why I was put in that specific class, and I hope to be able to do a good job at the assigned position. I can already evaluate on myself a little, and I can see what seems to work and what doesn't. Now I just have to come up with strategies to deal with these issues differently should I face them again. I'm sort of apprehensive about the next month, seeing as I don't know whether I'm gonna be alone in class or not. I really really hope not, as I don't feel ready to take on a whole class alone, but it'll be one of those bull by the horns things, just like I've taken just about everything about this internship so far. It won't be great, but it'll be done and I'll probably hate myself afterwards.
Only five more months to go ..

Christmas has been an absolute family mess. The usual uncle has pulled his usual pissy fits of course (supposedly my dad is also pissed at me now), but another uncle decided to bail on his family two days before Christmas. It hit me surprisingly hard, because they're always the part of the family you can rely on, and I honestly didn't think he would stoop so low. They're figuring it out together now, but it's unsure what the end result will be.
It coincided with ripping up in some old emotional shit, which combined just effectively ruined Christmas.

Looking back, this year has been fairly dull and sucky, but at least it has passed fast. It has been a year filled with dread, children, money issues and bullshit. I enjoyed my newfound freedom and reconnected with an old love. I celebrated my birthday on my own terms, and I've stuck with my education. I've even made a few new friends, so I guess that's something. I even managed to start exercising! Even if I did it this month!
I'm writing my resolutions below, and hoping I'll follow at least a few of them.

Thank you for sticking with me through the year(s). Happy Newyear!