Kind of already broke a newyears resolution, January isn't even half done and there's quite a lot of bullshit going on.
I'll try to add positive updates after these two rants, I'm sorry for appearing so negative, I'm just a really negative person
First of all, got my wallet stolen on Saturday while taking the train. Fortunately, the pissknuckle was caught almost immediately and I have my wallet back, minus some change and a punchcard for the train. I blocked my credit card first thing, so I have to wait for a new one to arrive. I'm not wondering why I was the victim, it was just a very unpleasant experience. The police told me he's definitely going to prison, but it's not gonna be for more than 2 - 3 months. At least I have a face so I can avoid him and warn train personnel if I happen to see him.
I haven't spoken to the so-called boyfriend in 3 weeks; haven't really contacted him and he hasn't contacted me since the 3rd or so. Frankly I'm just gathering the courage to go end it, or at the very least just be a dick and message him, because I have been a lot happier since I haven't felt forced to spend time with him. I'm pretty sure the reason he hasn't done anything, is either because he's pretty blinded by the fact that I saved his life and he's hoping it's just a phase where I'll come back to him, or that he has realised that I'm probably not so into it, and doesn't feel comfortable when he can't crawl into his little box of being the poor boy who girls always leave. Or both, what do I know.
On my half, it's a mix of a severely altered and uneven relation since the accident, him only accepting me with his perception of my personality and not respecting things I say when it doesn't fit the box he's shoving over my head, and me just really REALLY needing space. (If you're reading this before I do it, and you're not because you don't give a shit about my drawings; sorry. It's just not working for me.)
And as promised, some positive things! I've tried to be more impulsive this month (Saturday was one thing, but also in general). It has worked well, I've gotten some things done in my home that has needed fixing in forever, I've been eating healthier, trying to appreciate the people around me more and being more social. And on top of that, I'm drawing a whole lot, and improving too!
I've told myself that I'm gonna start exercising come February, both to avoid the flood of people with newyears resolutions and to avoid the whole "new year new me" trope. I just want to be healthier. Things I should probably get done
- Become single
- Check e-box
- Recycle glass bottles
- Start exercising
- Clean out my wardrobe
- KEEP DRAWING EVERYTHING ALL THE TIME