Lots of intentions of drawing, but very little to actually prove it. I'm perpetually cool.
The end of the year has come much sooner than I thought it would. It's only about three days or so until I start my internship. I'm pretty nervous, but I'm fairly confident that I can do this.
I went to visit the place last week. I'm supposed to help out in a kindergarden class, which is something I've wanted to try for a while. It fits me pretty well, because at this time they'll have sort of gotten the hang of what it means to be a student, but haven't gotten confident enough about it to be jerks.
School has been pretty well, but I can feel my interest waning in it, so I'm glad to be about to go do something else than sit around.
In relation to that, my new schedule means I'll have to take a break from the therapy group I've been a part of for the past 4 years. On one hand I had hoped that my stop wouldn't be as sudden as it was, and on the other, I feel like it's time. I've learned a lot over the past 4 years, but I've felt a need for this break for a while. I have a standing offer with one of the therapists for one-on-one sessions, but she has cancelled on me three times now. So Idk.
I've been really explosive over the past month. A lot of bullshit has happened, and I'm just so done with just about everything. It's both from life in general and the people in it that's getting on my nerves. Might have reacted strongly on some stuff, but it's not something I feel the need to apologize for.
I'd also like to send a giant middle finger to public transportation for effectively singlehandedly ruining every important thing I had to do this month.
There's not a lot more I feel like saying right now. I always have a ton of rants here about people, but since I've kinda snapped at most of the people I've been annoyed by, I don't really see the relevance.
Oh right yeah, I could talk family. It's not really a rant either, I have no problem with them right now. It's that we've settled how to celebrate Christmas.
My mom was facing a Christmas alone this year, so my dad invited her over to his house to celebrate Christmas eve with me, my brother and our grandparents. Perhaps also the uncle I don't like, but he hasn't really given an answer. She did the same for him last year when he stood to celebrate Christmas alone.
The "funny" (read: stupid) thing about this is that he's hiding this from his girlfriend, who is spending Christmas eve with her son and her brother's family. Way to make this not look suspicious to her at all if she finds out, you idiot. Things I should probably get done
- Pay rent
- Find out how poor I'm gonna be next month after rent
- Buy Christmas presents
- Stop myself from spending so much money all the damn time
- Prep for the internship
- Draw a holiday card to send out to people - figured that would be a cool thing to do this year.