I was a little apprehensive on whether I should keep on posting these. They're therapeutic in a way; makes it feel like something's keeping tabs on me, but idk if they've been too TMI. Let me know, but otherwise it'll probably go down a lot like the past two years.
We'll start with the internship then.
It's stressful as fuck. There are good days, boring days and really insanely stressful days. Mostly it's something I haven't had the power to change.
It feels partly like everyone's finding me annoying on some level. Idk, I'd probably find me annoying too if I had 20 years experience compared to some idiot with a total of 6 months experience. I'm doing okay though, I'm showing up for work 98% of the time, I show up for class and I've done my homework on time.
Furthermore, they're eating up things I've brought to the table, so that's nice.
Next week we're going on a field trip to the capital. It's gonna be interesting.
Family .. oh boy. It's a mess.
On the 22nd of December, my aunt's husband decided to text her that he wasn't coming home anymore, because he'd met someone else. It's been a super tough Christmas for all of us because of it, and they've been back and forth about it, but it's now seemingly over between them. It's gonna be tough for the family, and we've decided to start seeing each other more from now on.
As for myself; I'm in the process of getting screened for some things by the therapist I'm seeing. Nothing's set in stone, but it's heading some places. I don't believe it'll change anything, other than perhaps giving me words to describe what I'm experiencing.
Love's going pretty well. At least for me, I'm happy about how things are at the moment. I want to do something nice for him soon, since the past few times I've been super tired each and every time we've been together.
I can also finally say that, even though it took me a WHOLE YEAR TO GET MY SHIT TOGETHER, I've finally started exercising. Things I need to do:
- The damn dishes
- The Toucan
- Win the BC
- Get through the next 4 months in one piece
- Plan that thing that I need to do for the internship