Please commission me, that would be really awesome.
... I should probably whip up some commission info. BUT PLEASE STILL COMMISSION ME!
Idk, so far it hasn't really been that interesting this month, but I'm just assuming it's quiet before the storm, really.
Next Tuesday I'm starting the first internship in my course. It's 7 weeks in an after-school institution. There are near 400 kids there every single day. I went to visit there about a week ago, and it was a very hectic experience. Thinking was near impossible in there, so I hope I'll be getting my fair share of outdoor shifts once Spring starts to really take hold. I don't know, I'm really really nervous about it, and all I really want right now is for it to be over with so I can go back to school and prepare for my exam in week 25. The school puts a lot of weight on academics, and it makes the whole thing seem like I am supposed to live up to a metric ton of academic knowledge while working with these people and children, and it's putting so much pressure on me. I don't know how much I'll be drawing in the next two months, but I'll most likely be super exhausted, sad, nervous and stressed, and I really hate the thought of that.
I've had my last word in my old "relationship". Word is so much said (pun not intended), I had a hoodie of his which I didn't feel like having him come around and demand of me, so I shoved it in his mailbox on my way to class. He's now deleted everywhere except on my phone, but his number will eventually get deleted as well. I'm .. enjoying(? trying to enjoy?) my newfound life as single. No promiscuities or nothing, just attempting to find foothold on my own two legs.
I know what I must do, because I can't be like this, I can't be this person anymore. I hate who I've become so much.
My grandpa is turning 80 in a couple of weeks. My dad is trying a thing where we'll see him and grandma much more than we do, because we have no idea how long we'll have them both. My dad is nearly 60 now, and has been incredibly blessed to have both his parents his whole life.
Only problem is, I feel that I'm seeing too much of my own dad, I mean he's fine, I just can't be around him as much as he wants me to be. He's incredibly sexist, and doesn't understand why I don't "act like a woman". He doesn't really understand that instead of teaching his child to be subordinate, he showed me that I am the most important person in my own life. Even if it wasn't his intention, I'm thankful for that, as it has probably saved my life to think this way, but that doesn't mean it's not annoying when he acts the way he does.
In other news, I taught Thor to say Baby Bird. He says it all the time now, it's freaking adorable. It's pissing Pølle off though.
And uh, I'm on flightrising, and have been for a while now? but I'm really bad at drawing dragons, so I don't think you'll see much of that here. The UN is Anzou, if you feel like hmu
Aaaand Mechanisch is in the BC for March 13th! (I hope, if AnonTNT don't fuck up)www.neopets.com/beauty/details…
Please consider voting if you're a neo-nerd like me. Things I should probably get done
- Prepare everything for internship
- Read up on portfolio and finish that